Trauma Healing

There is absolute truth to this statement. I used to be overly sensitive to words and actions, but since I realized I needed to heal, and what I was experiencing from other people were actually triggers to my trauma, I began to change my reactions to their behavior. I used to feel like people were judging me and comparing my crappy life to their own happy life. But that wasn’t the case at all. I think it was ME comparing my life to others and wishing my life was easier.

Well, what I thought was crappy was actually Complex PTSD symptoms creeping out into my friendships and relationships, as well as my family relationships. I began working on this area with my therapist, and after many years of talk therapy, I did notice it alleviate a lot of my complex PTSD symptoms. But this took about five (5) years of therapy to get where I am today.

Now, I can firmly say that I no longer feel like the world is against me. I’ve learned that not everybody has this huge desire to talk about me, because I actually don’t have much of a life for anybody to talk about. Ohhh, I still have some “haters” out there. But that’s only because I have set boundaries. And some people don’t like that. Mainly the people who I allowed to push me around are the ones complaining about my boundaries. But I don’t care. It’s my way of keeping myself safe from any further harm.

And don’t get me wrong when I say I’ve healed. That doesn’t mean I’m 100% better. There is still a lot of healing to be had. But in this particular situation I feel I’ve moved past my “fear” of people, to some extent. And I no longer wish my life was different.