Trauma Healing

It’s hard for me, when I see an easier way and I try to approach it to them, but they get angry that I’m showing them an easier way.

I am nowhere near healed from my trauma. I am fifty-five (55) years old and I just started on my journey…… I would say, ….when I was …. 48 years old. Though the beginning of my journey looks no where near how it looks now. I’m older. I’m colder. I hate to say that word, but it’s the only word I can come up with that is truthful. I have really just turned into a cold b****. And I’m angry about it. People say “pray about it”, “Give it to God”, etc. But something inside me keeps hanging on. And I don’t know why.

What it is, is poor self talk. When you isolate yourself from people that leaves you extremely vulnerable when you actually ARE around people. Because you don’t know how to react. Or respect or understand some of their words, or what their jokes really mean.

A lot of people have narcissistic traits, but not everybody has narcissistic personality disorder. As a matter of fact, we all have narcissistic traits, but that doesn’t mean we all have narcissistic personality disorder.

I have …or had friends with this disorder. It’s amazing how many people you run into that have this disorder, or, if nothing else, some traits. Even I do. But something I have learned about people is nobody really wants to know the truth. They want to stay stuck in their own truth, and sometimes, that truth is actually hurtful.

I don’t know how many times I have to stress how we are all connected. And when one person rocks the boat we all feel it. Some more than others because it depends on how closely connected you are to the one that caused the rift. So yeah, can you see this in your mind?