Trauma Healing

About thirty (30) minutes ago I was wondering why God was putting me through the things he was, and it all has to be done at the same time.

My current job is not working out. I’ve been there four (4) plus years. But in order for me to accel in my job it has to be a morning shift. I notice I get more anxiety in the afternoon. So bad, that I get sick. And end up calling in sick. It gives me too much time to think of work before work. I put this suggestion in and was ignored, so I’m now starting at a new home, with totally different people.

I’m trusting God on this one. Only He knows what’s going on here and who is learning what. Most likely me. As I have so much to learn. But I also believe that through the discomfort, I am a very valuable person to God. I’ve got something to show. And that is what I keep my mind on. Instead of being fearful.

It’s hard, starting with a new client and moving into an apartment pretty soon. At the same time. God is teaching me something. Maybe I’ve been too…. Arrogant with change. Acting like it’s easier that it really is.

I’m actually afraid to move. I’m afraid I’m going to fail. But at the same time, I wonder, “maybe this is why all of my friends were removed from my life?”. Clean slate, what’s it really like?