Trauma Healing

Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

It’s Time

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I have got so many changes going on right now and I’m wondering, “Why? Why do we have to change everything all at one time?”

I’m switching clients at work. I’m moving into my own place. And I’ve lost all of my friends…. Well, not all of them. Only the sensitive ones I guess.

But truth be told, I’m nervous about all of this. I don’t understand why God is moving me in this direction? Well, wait, I guess I do know why. Because I have been stagnant. And God knows there’s something more I should be doing. So, I’m going with it.

I had to switch clients, because I don’t do well with afternoon shifts. I can start as early in the morning as a person wants, but if I’m not at work before 12pm I have too much time to think about work, get anxious then end up not going. I’d rather start in the morning, when I don’t have time to think about work before I get there.

And I wouldn’t be switching clients at all if my original client would just give me mornings back. But I feel like she’s been punishing me ever since I went to go work for my son-in-laws grandmother. She did offer me mornings about a week ago, then for some reason changed her mind. My guess is it’s because she picked a current employee’s son for that position instead. But I just can’t make afternoons work for myself. So that’s why I’m switching clients.

I’ve already gotten a feel of the responsible party that I’m working with and I already feel this is going to be a challenge. This person has zero empathy for my nerves. I already got yelled at a couple of times. One for contacting the company, which, I did not understand. I always call the company. I don’t understand why now I’m not allowed to.

Second, I put in the wrong password too many times and ended up locking myself out. I was well aware of this. But I still got yelled at. Time will tell.

I sent a text message to my new landlord to be, just asking if it was too late to change my mind about the apartment. Not that I have, but would still like to know if that’s an option, before I move in. It doesn’t hurt to ask.

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