Trauma Healing

People maybe wonder about my faith. Not that I’m anybody important, but maybe after my last post people may be wondering. I’ll be glad to talk about it.

Let me start off by saying I was raised in the Catholic Church. I stuck with that until I was old enough and out of the house to make my own decisions. And for a while I didn’t believe anything. Well, I believed in a higher power. That was taught to me in treatment.

But today I believe in a lot of things. I know a little bit about each religion. I won’t say I’m fully Christian, though Christianity was all I knew, up until a few years ago.

I believe in God, Jesus and the Bible. I believe Jesus was sent here by God on a mission. I believe this so much, because, after all, I believe we are all here sent to this earth with a purpose. God has a plan for everybody. And I believe God sent Jesus for a purpose. And that was to spare the rest of the world. I think because of Jesus our sins have been atoned for. So, we can now have a personal relationship with God again, that was once taken away by Adam and Eve.

But I believe in more than that. I know Christian’s will say you should not rely on anybody or anything else but Jesus. But I say, God puts people in your life to teach you things about yourself. I don’t believe people meet by accident. God sent them into your life for some reason. Just like he removes people from your life for some reason. I’m sure all of it is to our benefit. God’s not out to hurt us.

I do believe in meditation. And I know that is something anti Christian. But it’s been an effective tool for me to keep my energy level lighthearted. And calm. I burn incense and candles, again which Christian’s are against. But that makes no sense to me. When Jesus was born three (3) wisemen gave gifts, and one was incense. Another was Myrrh, which I have in essential oils that I run in my diffuser.

I love making outdoor alters. And if I can find a pic of one I’ll show it to you. But living with my family currently, I don’t make outdoor alters, because my daughter doesn’t want my grandsons asking questions about it (my daughter is Christian).

I also make indoor alters, but I don’t feel they are as effective.

I own a singing bowl, which is anti Christian.

I collect crystal spheres, which again, is anti Christian. As a matter of fact, when I first got clean off meth (I suppose I had maybe a year of sobriety), I talked to one of the ministers at the church I was thinking about joining. Anyway, I made an appointment to talk to the minister, so we met. We talked about my concerns of using tarot cards and crystals. He told me I needed to get rid of everything, including the jewelry I was wearing. I got a little stubborn over that, so I didn’t go back. Not for a long time anyway. I wasn’t ready to give up my spheres. I had been collecting them for years. I have something like fifty-five (55) of them. I gave up all my jewelry (temporarily). I brought the church my tarot cards (some of them) to throw away. I just wasn’t ready to completely let go. So I stopped going to that church.

I then tried, what I would consider, a recovery church. I felt like I fit in okay, but I also felt like I was being a hypocrite. So, I just quit going. I haven’t found a church nearby that entices me. And it all has to do with beliefs.

I feel self-help books are words inspired by God. Lots of Christian’s don’t necessarily believe in self help books.

I could go on with my list, but I think people can conclude my point.

I love the outdoors and nature. I maybe worship it even. But I believe God is in the trees. I believe he’s in the birds. God is everywhere and everything.

And that, in a short course is what I believe in. Does that make me a Christian? The Christian’s would say not. If I were to call myself anything, it would be a Wiccan Christian. Though I don’t worship different deities, I do believe in harm no one and I worship God in nature. I don’t know if this is even a belief, but that’s the best I can call it. If we need a label.