Trauma Healing

I struggle with racing thoughts, mainly in the evening, later at night. That’s why I go to bed so darn early. Well, one reason. My mind starts to worry. And it could have to do with just about anything. Tonight it’s finances and moving. And Charlie Kirk.

I’m normally sleeping at this hour, but I ended up taking a nap earlier, so now I’m not tired. I’m trying to find things of interest in my bedroom to distract me. I’m burning a candle and burned some incense. I tried to focus on a TV show, but was unsuccessful in that, so I put on some meditation music, hoping it would get me started on a good daydream. But I can’t focus on that either.

I think I’m depressed. Over what happened to Charlie Kirk. I just think it is so sad that you can’t have an opinion anymore and you’re outed for it. The violence is getting worse. And I, myself, blame it on our last administration. Turning people into ….. monsters.

It’s so apparent where the violence is coming from. People have just lost their minds. All over politics.

We didn’t hear about this kind of violence on TV very often. Now, the news has just become unbearable to watch. It’s all violence.

Jesus said these types of things were going to start happening in the last days; Wars and rumors of war. People are going to be lovers of themselves and lovers of money. Hatred is going to run rampant. All of what’s going on these days is completely biblical.

What I don’t understand is, if it’s the libs that want illegal immigrants in the United States, then they should be opening up their houses to them. Not making it everybody else’s problem. It’s these people that want them here, but they don’t want to put them up. They just expect the taxpayers to cover the bill. These people are showing empathy to the wrong crowd. What about empathy for the United States as a whole. We are living in the dark ages.

And what I really find irritating is these people on that side, that are doing the most complaining, are the ones who have money and resources to help people, but they’d rather go on vacation and spend their money on themselves. Then complain that the government won’t flip the bill. It’s just ridiculous.

I know the difference between empathy and enabling. And I see that people are enabling others to continue with the violence. I’ve heard of all different kinds of arrests where these violators have had several convictions in the past, and we are just enabling them to continue on their sprees, because they get no consequences.

I think it’s time for people to come together and stop with the hatred and violence. But I’m just one small voice. And it seems people don’t want to come together as a collective unit. All because they hate Trump, they’re going to allow this violence to continue.

I’m at a loss for anymore words. All I can say is the struggle is real.