They say the third card is a charm. I got this same card as this morning. Now I really need to pay attention to what I’m doing. It’s making me wonder. What have I done now that is going to alter my world?
I am so glad I don’t do meth anymore. This card, getting twice in one day, would have me totally freaked out. I was a complete idiot.
I do believe in the validity of it though. The card. To get it again is making me wonder what I’ve done wrong? And that’s the reason I ended up throwing cards away and giving them away and reselling them. Some of this stuff I take literal.
Like I said in a previous post, I believe in a lot of things. I believe God sends messengers or messages. And it can come from anywhere. A card, a book, a TV show, etc. Whatever will lead you to conviction to change.
I need to pay more attention to what I’m doing today. Every action causes a reaction. I just don’t know how to be any kinder. Any better. Right in this moment.
I do wonder a lot whether I should even be doing this blog? The last time I started a blog was when I was on meth. And somehow it ended up getting hacked into. Or maybe it was my imagination.
That’s the thing that pisses me off so bad about that man. He apologized. But won’t tell me specifically what he’s apologizing for. Because he can’t be honest I cannot trust him. And that includes lunch dates.
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