Trauma Healing

I’m thinking about ending my blog. I don’t know, but for some reason it has become a triggering issue for me. All those bad things that happened to me 6/7 years ago started with a blog I had started. I’m afraid it’s going to happen again. I also remember it was this same time of year when I moved and started the blog. Then all that bad stuff started happening.

I feel like an angel with broken wings after a tremendous battle with Satan. But I am recovering, finally. Five years later. Every church I’ve tried I don’t feel like I belong, so I made my own church. Temporarily. And that’s biblical. I just feel like I’ve been through more than most people. Though I know everybody has their own struggles. I don’t dwell on it like I used to, so that’s a blessing. But it still affects my life in small and big ways. I still talk about it from time to time. I think I’m lying to myself. I Maybe talk about it more than I realize.

The lack of interest in a relationship is due to that old mess. And my mental health. I just don’t have the energy to put forth in a relationship. Or, maybe I just haven’t found the one that I want to make an effort for.

Lately, when I think about posting something I start to get paranoid. I’m afraid people will know too much about me and mess with my head again.

It’s just strange that I moved and started a blog again, at the same time of year (October).