Trauma Healing

My morning meditation usually includes reading a little in my Bible and choosing a fitting verse for me for the day, and this is the verse that stuck with me this morning.

I don’t know what is going on with me this morning, but I am, like, petrified with anxiety. Thinking about moving and how unprepared I am. This is going to be a slow process. Because of my work schedule. But I’m hoping to pack my first load in the car today in preparation for tomorrow morning as I have to be there at 10am for the internet install. After that it’s a crap shoot when my bed is going to get there…..

But ahhh, I just thought of something. I bought a twin bed for company that I can probably get to the house quicker than my own bed. It won’t hurt for me to sleep in that a couple nights.

I just had to call and make an appointment with my med doctor. I don’t know that she can help me with my issues this week, but I’m hoping she can suggest something for me. My problem is my ruminating thoughts. And it’s all negative, predicting the future. It’s causing fear in me. And I freeze in fear. I can’t concentrate or focus on what I want to do about this moving business.

Again, 11:11 and I pray: Dear Lord Jesus, please bring peace to everybody in the world. Peace for my family. Peace for my friends. Peace for my enemies. And peace for myself. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Second day this week looking at the time and seeing 11:11. Like I said, I’ve been seeing this almost daily. I just happen to look at the time and it’s 11:11.

I’ve been dragging this post on for a few days trying to finish it. I had 1:11 come across my phone this morning. And again I pray my prayer: Dear God, I pray for peace for everybody in the world. Peace for my family. Peace for my friends. Peace for my enemies. And peace for myself. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.