Trauma Healing

I can’t watch main stream media news, it really stresses me out. I have a friend on the opposing side. We don’t talk politics together much, because of the differing opinions. But when I visit her she’s always watching main stream media news. So I get the privilege of watching it too. It gets to a point where I just have to walk away, because what main stream media is doing is putting fear in people. And that’s frustrating.

I am so upset about this government shutdown. Not because of what Trump is doing, but because the democrats don’t f’ing care about what they are doing to the American people. All they care about is being “right”. All they care about is their hate toward Trump. And Trump isn’t doing anything wrong. And they hate that. So they start making shit up to put fear in people. No, illegal migrants should not be receiving benefits. They can receive services if they come into the United States the proper way. I have a right to my opinion just as well as everybody else.

Things are not as they appear on mainstream media. It’s just strange seeing both perspectives, yet still, I am unable to find the empathy for these people. They seem so far away from what is “right”. It all appears so selfish to me.

Changing the subject, I don’t know what to do about work. I’m getting anxious and angry. I gave my last client a two week notice and also contacted the company that I would be switching clients. Doing it this way so I would not miss any work. Well, so far I’ve had two weeks off. I’m getting angry and I’m getting nervous. My new client needs the “okay” from the company before I can start. This stuff should have been taken care of when I and the new client first contacted the company two weeks ago. So, I feel like somebody dropped the ball. My first week off was due to the flu. That’s why I haven’t posted for some time. That and the fact that my last post upset a male friend I’ve been hanging out with a bit. He told me my posts are “dumb” and “Why do you gotta talk about the past?” Well, a lot of my past is what made me the person I am today. I don’t believe I’m talking about the past too much. I also find it therapeutic. I think he’s just being jealous. And this jealousy bothers me. I can’t seem to get away from it. And, actually, him calling my posts “dumb” really hurt my feelings…NOT. He can think whatever he wants. I didn’t start this blog for him.

Dear God, I pray for peace. Peace for everybody in the world. Peace for my family, my friends, my enemies and my acquaintances. I also pray for peace for myself. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.