Trauma Healing

It’s only 6 o’clock in the morning and my day has already started with anxiety. I’ve actually been awake since, probably, 2am. My thoughts keep ruminating over work. When am I going to start? Every time it starts to bother me I give it to God. And sometimes I’ve gotta give it to God every thirty (30) seconds. Unfortunately, all I’m doing to distract myself is stare at the clock. Waiting for businesses to open up, so that maybe my new client will hear back from the company today. I gotta let this go somehow and maybe the best way is to try and take a nap. But my mind wanders back to work. Like I said, sometimes I’ve gotta give it to God every thirty (30) seconds, a lot of the time. This morning especially.

Well, God never fails. I did lay down for a nap and I woke up to find a message that I am ready to work. God never fails to amaze me. I’m working the weekend to try and catch up.

This photo/lamp/beads brings up memories. I got my tall lamp out of storage and placed it in its spot, as is. I’d like to point out the beads in the photo. I remember when I had a big interest in shiny beads. So, this prompted me to dig out my box of beads. Shiny beads. The picture does them actually no justice. They still catch my eye. Whatever I was going to do with them I did not know. But it brings up sweetness in times of strife.

I feel particularly fond of some interests I had in the past that I might just bring back into my life. I was a bead collector, always looking for the shiniest beads.

The last time I actually enjoyed being out on my own was when I lived where I live now. Yeah, I’ve lived in this community before. Just a different apartment. So, I feel like God is directing me somewhere. Almost like a repeat or do-over. I say that because there are other strange things going on right now that I’m not quite ready to talk about yet in public. But I do believe God is working on my behalf!