Trauma Healing

The pic was put together by ChatGPT. I just threw it on here because I don’t have any other pic to offer. But it’s me, ChatGPT style.

I’m spending the night at a friend’s house tonight. I will admit it’s difficult. I’ve been here since about 10:30-11am. It was not my plan to spend the night. I don’t think Bobber is too happy about it, especially since I have to leave him again once I get home for work. Yeah, I’m feeling guilty leaving him alone so long. But my friend was having a very difficult day, and every time I mentioned going home she asked me to please stay. So, that’s what I’m doing. And she’s sleeping great right now, while I’m tossing and turning.

I don’t sleep well at other people’s house. I’m used to my own routine. I sleep with YouTube meditation music on all night for two (2) reasons: 1. the music and 2. the lighting. I don’t like sleeping in the dark, and I don’t like sleeping in silence. You know, you can hear everybody snoring, except yourself (lol). I don’t like being in the dark. What if I have to use the restroom? Do I just fumble my way through?

And I do really miss Bobber. I wonder what he’s up to. Is he behaving himself? Or am I going home to a mess? He does not like to be left home alone for long periods and I have to leave him tomorrow to work. I’m going home at like 7am, or as soon as it starts getting light. I’d go home right now at midnight, but my night vision is terrible. I have night glasses, but I have yet to acclimate to them.

I went to an online NA meeting yesterday morning. I actually found a website that has zoom meetings every hour of every day. I thought that was pretty great. I was going to go to one last night as well, but I kept missing the top of the hour and eventually just fell asleep 😴.

Tonight I am grateful for friends and grateful for cats 🐱.