Trauma Healing

Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

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  • Regression

    This is a big word to chew on, but I think I’ve been regressing the past three (3) weeks. I don’t know what’s causing it, but I am noticing. One thing I’ve noticed for sure is I’m shuffling cards again, several times a day. I don’t know what’s causing this or what I’m looking for(?).…

  • Frustration and Fear

    I’m am getting incredibly frustrated with this lack of sleeping due to nightmares. I’ve been waking up around 1-1:30am every night for the past three (3) weeks now because of this recurring nightmare I keep having. The nightmare is real, as in, it is something that happened in the past that I don’t like talking…

  • Sleepless Nights

    I normally have trouble sleeping, but this past week has been the worst. I wake up about 1am from nightmares and am unable to fall back to sleep. I am now convinced that everything that happened to me during the incident was real. I’ve spoken to some of my friends and was given more details…

  • To Trust or Not to Trust

    I am learning that I am not as far along on my healing path as I had thought. I still get easily triggered. My way of dealing with the issue has been to avoid it. My therapist and I are at a standstill. She feels we can go no further until I get some specialized…

  • My Alters

    Most people call what I have nick knacks. But I call them alters. This is my first alter. This is my prayer for my family. I pray for peace for my family. It holds pictures of my family with a tea light candle. I burn one every night. This is my second alter. It has…

  • I’m Struggling. But I Sure Feel Blessed

    That is a Himalayan Salt Lamp I finally got out of storage. What a treasure it was to find. And I’m glad I was able to find a spot for it in my apartment. You may also notice another new addition as well. I finally figured out what makes me sneeze so much in the…

  • Feeling Vulnerable

    So, a friend and I stopped speaking to each other, again. I confronted her on a behavior of hers and she blocked me after that. I strongly feel like I’m dealing with someone with NPD. And sometimes I wonder if I’m trauma bonded to this relationship/friendship. We go around and around, all of the time.…

  • Some People Really Frustrate Me

    I don’t know if I should even be talking about this, but I find some people to really be idiots. That includes me. But seriously, I have a co-worker …. This person is an idiot. I don’t know what else to say about it. She’s trying to tell me things about the job that I…

  • I Found My Back Flow Incense Burner

    I can’t believe I found my back flow incense burner! I’ve been looking for this for three (3) years. I am so happy it is back in my possession. I’ve had a few really positive days. It’s not that anything big has happened. I’ve just changed, emotionally. Not much bothers me. The things that do…

  • I Remember When…Recovering From Trauma

    I remember when I used to smoke cigarettes. I quit in August of 2023, after smoking since I was 15 years old. I remember how I would get up at 4am in the morning for work, sit out on the deck with my cup of coffee and cigarettes and watch the sun come up and…

  • Making Changes, Moving On

    I’ve had people come and go from my life on plenty of occasions and all for different reasons. I don’t necessarily believe anybody is meant to stay in your life, only long enough to teach you something you need to know about yourself or the world. People are teachers. People are messengers. And when the…

  • Forgiveness Can Be Hard, But Necessary in Order to Move On.

    In the book of Mathew Jesus speaks on forgiveness. In his discussion with Peter he says not only should we forgive seven (7) times, but rather, we should forgive seventy-seven (77) times. Which literally means no matter what the circumstance you should forgive. This can be a hard pill to swallow sometimes. Especially when there’s…

  • Anxiety. What a Waste.

    It’s only 6 o’clock in the morning and my day has already started with anxiety. I’ve actually been awake since, probably, 2am. My thoughts keep ruminating over work. When am I going to start? Every time it starts to bother me I give it to God. And sometimes I’ve gotta give it to God every…

  • Stress, That’s What They Want

    I can’t watch main stream media news, it really stresses me out. I have a friend on the opposing side. We don’t talk politics together much, because of the differing opinions. But when I visit her she’s always watching main stream media news. So I get the privilege of watching it too. It gets to…

  • Feeling Unwell

    I’ve been sick, for a few days now. The doctor says it’s the flu and gave me a prescription to make it go away faster, but it hasn’t. I’m on day four (4) of the medication and I still don’t feel great. It’s disappointing because I’m missing work, and that bothers me. Other than that:…