Trauma Healing

Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

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  • Back On Track

    April 1, 2026 is my new clean date, if people believe when you relapse you have to start all over. I don’t believe that, because I feel it discourages people from stopping. They get the case of the f*** its. I’ve been there. You can call it what you want. I’m kinda depressed over the…

  • Honesty Is The Best Policy

    I have a confession to share. And I’m just going to get straight to the point. May 4 2020 is/was my clean date from methamphetamine. I say is/was, because I don’t want to put so much focus on the fact that I had a relapse. When I focus on that it feels very discouraging. I’ll…

  • Progress, Progress, Progress! I’m so pleased and Proud of my Bobber!

    Bobber and I have really made progress today. And it’s so strange how it just suddenly happened. My brother came down to visit for the night. He brought his dog with him this time. It’s a bigger dog; Akita/Shepard? I know it’s part Akita for sure anyway. I’ve read about Akita’s, as I thought to…

  • Why?

    I haven’t slept worth a damn in two nights. I’m exhausted, but still sleep is eluding me. I wake up from nightmares and my mind won’t stop thinking. Mostly about the nightmares and that I don’t want to have another one. I saw that man for about a week, three weeks ago now. I don’t…

  • Look Who Has Stolen My Spot in the Bed

    I had my brother here for the weekend and Bobber was a different kind of cat. He liked my brother so much he slept with him. I feel betrayed lol. Of course I realize that is not my brother’s fault. Bobber is used to sleeping in that bed, so it only made sense he would…

  • That’s My Bobber

    I’m not sure how long it’s been since I’ve posted on Bobber. As a matter of fact, I think I started my last post with the same statement, but don’t quote me on it, sometimes I think and rarely speak. Bobber and I are really good buddies. He sleeps in my spot when I am…

  • I Am So Glad I Have Bobber

    I’m not sure how many days it’s been since I’ve last posted on Bobber. But I can tell you today we are much better buddies. Bobber likes his treats. He lets me pet him after he’s had several treats. As a matter of fact, he just let me pet him now without a treat at…

  • My Cat is My Therapy

    Bobber has become my therapy cat. I do a lot of reading up on him and how to handle him as an adoptive parent. I love that cat, even though I can’t stand the litter on my feet. This guy likes to make sure his sh*t is buried. 😂 Bobber makes me laugh, all the…

  • Yes, I Still Love My Cat, Even Though He’s a Little Stinker

    So, yes, his name is Bobber. But he looks at me when I call him “Buddy”. I think I need to change his name. Bobber has definitely settled in his new home. Oh he still won’t let me touch him, but he does have a certain amount of trust in me. Last night he sat…

  • I’ll Say it Again. I Love My Cat

    I brought home some catnip and a toy for my buddy, Bobber. Now, we are almost best friends. After I shot the video he came out from under the bed to give me the once over. That cat has a unique, mystical personality. There is something about him I find very intriguing. He reminds me…

  • I Can’t Help Myself

    Okay, I have to be honest, I already love this guy and I just got him yesterday. I still have yet for him to approach me. He ate a little food last night, but hasn’t touched anything all day today. He’s been under my bed, at the end of it, hiding in my blankets on…

  • Something Positive to Share

    I’d like to introduce you to my newly adopted guy, Bobber. He got his name because the add said “Bobert”, but his name was actually “Robert”. I decided on “Bobber”, because this guys is like a fish. When I first got him home I left him in the crate for about an hour to let…

  • Regression

    This is a big word to chew on, but I think I’ve been regressing the past three (3) weeks. I don’t know what’s causing it, but I am noticing. One thing I’ve noticed for sure is I’m shuffling cards again, several times a day. I don’t know what’s causing this or what I’m looking for(?).…

  • Frustration and Fear

    I’m am getting incredibly frustrated with this lack of sleeping due to nightmares. I’ve been waking up around 1-1:30am every night for the past three (3) weeks now because of this recurring nightmare I keep having. The nightmare is real, as in, it is something that happened in the past that I don’t like talking…

  • Sleepless Nights

    I normally have trouble sleeping, but this past week has been the worst. I wake up about 1am from nightmares and am unable to fall back to sleep. I am now convinced that everything that happened to me during the incident was real. I’ve spoken to some of my friends and was given more details…