Trauma Healing

Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

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  • Third Card They Say Is a Charm

    They say the third card is a charm. I got this same card as this morning. Now I really need to pay attention to what I’m doing. It’s making me wonder. What have I done now that is going to alter my world? I am so glad I don’t do meth anymore. This card, getting…

  • My Daily Prayer

    I see 11:11 quite often and when I see it I pray this prayer: God, I pray for peace. Peace in this world. Peace for my family. Peace for my friends. Peace for my enemies. And peace for myself. In Jesus name I pray. Amen. I say this prayer anytime I see 11:11, in which…

  • Another Early Morning

    I woke up again at 2am and this time I was at a friends house. I couldn’t fall back to sleep, so I came home, hoping my own bed would make a difference, but it didn’t really. My friend gave me a deck of oracle cards. I pulled my first card this morning: It does…

  • Cleansing My Space

    Today I am burning some palo santo in my bedroom. I love the smell and I consider it cleansing to my space. Yes, cleansing away the evil spirits. Though I know we’re supposed to rely on God and the Bible for these things, it helps to actively do something. In my eyes it’s no different…

  • What’s Complex PTSD? And How is it Different from PTSD?

    It’s 2am again and I’m blogging. What’s this complex PTSD about? And how does it differentiate from PTSD? My therapist diagnosed me with it a few months ago, rather than PTSD. I’m not sure how she determined that, other than the fifty (50) questions she asked. To be honest, it doesn’t surprise me. I’ve been…

  • God is the Answer

    We don’t know for sure what this person is reading, but we can assume it’s the Holy Bible if we want to. Whatever book it is it’s a treasure. I believe in the Holy Bible. I also believe in other writings as well. I believe God sends us messengers. We just need to know when…

  • 2am Ramblings

    It is, yet again, 2am and I am awake. I thought it was coffee time, until I went upstairs and saw an empty pot. I looked at the time. 2am in the middle of the darn morning. Now what? Well, as long as I’m awake I might as well show you some of the braclets…

  • Mean Parents

    I was in trouble a lot when I was growing up. I didn’t get much recognition for anything, not even for just being alive. Both my parents treated me horribly, compared to the rest of my siblings. But if you were to talk to each of us separately we would all have completely different recollections…

  • Overwhelm, Another Symptom of Unresolved Trauma

    I’m still having a hard time with my bedroom. I look around at everything that needs to be packed, I stand up to do something, look around and sit right back down. I know this is either a symptom of my mental illness or it’s a symptom of unresolved trauma still lingering. You know, brain…

  • Insomnia as a Symptom

    Yes, another night struggling with insomnia. I’ve been awake more than I’ve been sleeping and it’s just plain getting frustrating. My therapist told me that if I can’t fall back to sleep I’m supposed to get out of bed and do something else. But what can I do in the middle of the night that’s…

  • What’s in the Cards

    I really don’t mess around with tarot cards much anymore. But once in awhile I like to see if I can still read minds, mainly mine, so I’ll pull them out and take a look. The above was my drawing. We have The Tower as the overall energy, and it’s about breaking down barriers to…

  • Time is Ticking – Yikes Triggers

    I am feeling a tremendous amount of overwhelm with this moving business. I don’t know how to organize and pack, and it’s just a darn bedroom. All my other stuff is scattered here and there. Some at my sister’s (oldest), and some at a friend’s house. To me, it seems to make more sense to…

  • Triggers

    As much as I struggle with feelings I do believe in kindness. I reached out to a couple of friends yesterday, but was disappointed to realize I’ve been blocked. People block me when they I don’t give them what they want. They block me because they know it hurts me. But that’s how I know…

  • Anger is an Emotion That Will Drown you

    I was feeling a tremendous amount of anger yesterday. It’s an emotion I haven’t felt in a long time. I didn’t know how to deal with it at the time, other than sleep it away. Which, is one of my coping skills. I don’t know if it’s necessarily a good coping skill, but that’s what…

  • Psychological Torture

    Why do I have a picture of the last supper? And why is this titled “Psychological Torture?” Because it’s a trigger for me. When I was a small child we had the picture of the last supper above our dining table. My dad would make us kids stand around the picture of the last supper…