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Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

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  • Insomnia as a Symptom

    Yes, another night struggling with insomnia. I’ve been awake more than I’ve been sleeping and it’s just plain getting frustrating. My therapist told me that if I can’t fall back to sleep I’m supposed to get out of bed and do something else. But what can I do in the middle of the night that’s…

  • What’s in the Cards

    I really don’t mess around with tarot cards much anymore. But once in awhile I like to see if I can still read minds, mainly mine, so I’ll pull them out and take a look. The above was my drawing. We have The Tower as the overall energy, and it’s about breaking down barriers to…

  • Time is Ticking – Yikes Triggers

    I am feeling a tremendous amount of overwhelm with this moving business. I don’t know how to organize and pack, and it’s just a darn bedroom. All my other stuff is scattered here and there. Some at my sister’s (oldest), and some at a friend’s house. To me, it seems to make more sense to…

  • Triggers

    As much as I struggle with feelings I do believe in kindness. I reached out to a couple of friends yesterday, but was disappointed to realize I’ve been blocked. People block me when they I don’t give them what they want. They block me because they know it hurts me. But that’s how I know…

  • Anger is an Emotion That Will Drown you

    I was feeling a tremendous amount of anger yesterday. It’s an emotion I haven’t felt in a long time. I didn’t know how to deal with it at the time, other than sleep it away. Which, is one of my coping skills. I don’t know if it’s necessarily a good coping skill, but that’s what…

  • Psychological Torture

    Why do I have a picture of the last supper? And why is this titled “Psychological Torture?” Because it’s a trigger for me. When I was a small child we had the picture of the last supper above our dining table. My dad would make us kids stand around the picture of the last supper…

  • 2:40am – Nothing Unusual Here

    I won’t keep complaining about my sleeping habits, but it does get tiring waking up so often in the middle of the night. And as the picture indicates, I’ve been awake since 2:40am. I am finding comfort in solitude. My life has really settled down and I’m actually looking forward to my move. I need…

  • Mixed Up Day

    I’m not going to lie. Today has been a really mixed up day for me. I was supposed to go to group this morning, but I didn’t wake up until 9:00am. It started at 10:00am. I felt so unprepared and so confused I had to cancel it for today. I have not been feeling right…

  • Sleepless Nights, Early Mornings

    I’m tired of not sleeping. My body does not shut down at night. Not naturally. I normally have to take medication to slow down my brain long enough to fall asleep. I wake up several times through the night. I don’t know why. This has been going on ever since my stint on meth. It’s…

  • Deep Dive

    I’ve been watching this show on YouTube right now and I’m only about twenty (20) minutes into it and I just couldn’t believe my ears. People were celebrating over Charlie Kirk’s death?? There is wording in the Bible specifically about that. And I wish I knew off the top of my head where that was.…

  • Alone, But Not Lonely

    I spend a lot of time by myself. And I enjoy it. For me, it is really difficult to socialize, unless I have a cocktail in my hand. My anxiety always kicks in. So if there’s alcohol around (mainly wine), I’ll drink. But I prefer not to. That’s why I spend so much time alone.…

  • The Struggle is Real

    I struggle with racing thoughts, mainly in the evening, later at night. That’s why I go to bed so darn early. Well, one reason. My mind starts to worry. And it could have to do with just about anything. Tonight it’s finances and moving. And Charlie Kirk. I’m normally sleeping at this hour, but I…

  • Sharing Interests

    Blogging has actually become a very positive experience for me. Which really surprises me, since my delusions started with Word Press in 2018. And I would say around this same time. We are running into October. The last time I was alone was when I moved in October 2018, to Osceola Wisconsin. I had no…

  • Then And Now – What Meth Does to You

    I’ve been clean from meth for over five (5) years now. I refuse to associate with anyone who does it. I’ve come a long way and I am very, humbly proud of myself. For some reason I feel like one of the lucky ones. That drug is very hard to get off of once you…

  • Speaking of Faith

    People maybe wonder about my faith. Not that I’m anybody important, but maybe after my last post people may be wondering. I’ll be glad to talk about it. Let me start off by saying I was raised in the Catholic Church. I stuck with that until I was old enough and out of the house…