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Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

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  • 2:40am – Nothing Unusual Here

    I won’t keep complaining about my sleeping habits, but it does get tiring waking up so often in the middle of the night. And as the picture indicates, I’ve been awake since 2:40am. I am finding comfort in solitude. My life has really settled down and I’m actually looking forward to my move. I need…

  • Mixed Up Day

    I’m not going to lie. Today has been a really mixed up day for me. I was supposed to go to group this morning, but I didn’t wake up until 9:00am. It started at 10:00am. I felt so unprepared and so confused I had to cancel it for today. I have not been feeling right…

  • Sleepless Nights, Early Mornings

    I’m tired of not sleeping. My body does not shut down at night. Not naturally. I normally have to take medication to slow down my brain long enough to fall asleep. I wake up several times through the night. I don’t know why. This has been going on ever since my stint on meth. It’s…

  • Deep Dive

    I’ve been watching this show on YouTube right now and I’m only about twenty (20) minutes into it and I just couldn’t believe my ears. People were celebrating over Charlie Kirk’s death?? There is wording in the Bible specifically about that. And I wish I knew off the top of my head where that was.…

  • Alone, But Not Lonely

    I spend a lot of time by myself. And I enjoy it. For me, it is really difficult to socialize, unless I have a cocktail in my hand. My anxiety always kicks in. So if there’s alcohol around (mainly wine), I’ll drink. But I prefer not to. That’s why I spend so much time alone.…

  • The Struggle is Real

    I struggle with racing thoughts, mainly in the evening, later at night. That’s why I go to bed so darn early. Well, one reason. My mind starts to worry. And it could have to do with just about anything. Tonight it’s finances and moving. And Charlie Kirk. I’m normally sleeping at this hour, but I…

  • Sharing Interests

    Blogging has actually become a very positive experience for me. Which really surprises me, since my delusions started with Word Press in 2018. And I would say around this same time. We are running into October. The last time I was alone was when I moved in October 2018, to Osceola Wisconsin. I had no…

  • Then And Now – What Meth Does to You

    I’ve been clean from meth for over five (5) years now. I refuse to associate with anyone who does it. I’ve come a long way and I am very, humbly proud of myself. For some reason I feel like one of the lucky ones. That drug is very hard to get off of once you…

  • Speaking of Faith

    People maybe wonder about my faith. Not that I’m anybody important, but maybe after my last post people may be wondering. I’ll be glad to talk about it. Let me start off by saying I was raised in the Catholic Church. I stuck with that until I was old enough and out of the house…

  • Charlie Kirk – A man of faith – a Man of Martyrdom

    I don’t watch the news too often anymore, so I don’t really know what’s been happening lately. I had to quit watching, because it was stressing me out. But I went to dinner with a friend this evening and heard the sad news about Charlie Kirk. I about fell over. My daughter mentioned it to…

  • Memories and Trauma

    Yes, the memories are still there. Not just from this recent stint, but going all the way back to childhood. And they’re not necessarily memories stored in the brain, but more so memories stored in the body. The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk, MD is an excellent book on trauma and…

  • On a New Note

    A lot of my posts go into the draft file, because I get too scared to make myself vulnerable. There was a time when I was more forthcoming. But that was when I was on meth and thought people on TV were talking to me. I also thought I was some kind of superstar, about…

  • Morning Meditation

    I love mornings. And I especially love mornings when I can practice my rituals. I find meditation to be the most calming exercise I’ve tried, liked and stuck with. To me, meditation means I’m listening for God’s guidance. I could do this entirely in my bedroom. So my bedroom has become my safety zone. Of…

  • From Scapegoat to Seer

    This is another video I would recommend watching. Like I said, these series are very informative. They really open my eyes. I was the scapegoat in my family while I was growing up. And even now, my mother still despises me for some reason. I’ve often thought that maybe I had another father from the…

  • So the Saying Goes

    I’m not gonna sit here and lie that I am not nervous. Because I am. I don’t know if I’m making the right decisions. Everything is changing all at once. I don’t know what to think of it. Not only that, but I’ve had three (3) job offers now as well. So now I’ve got…