Trauma Healing

Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

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  • New Wake Up Time

    3am has been the magic hour of wake up for me for about a week now. Sometimes I’m able to fall back to sleep rather quickly. Last night, however, or this morning, I don’t think I fell back to sleep until about 4:30am then had to be up at 6:30am to make sure the boys…

  • An Attitude of Gratitude

    I decided to start my morning off with a gratitude list. Because I have a lot to be grateful for. I think my list could go on and on, because today, not only do I feel grateful, but I also feel unconditional love for everybody. Unfortunately, I really suck at sharing warm feelings. That’s probably…

  • Living in a Bully Environment

    There is absolute truth to this. I don’t think there’s much else I can say about it. Other than it’s pretty sad. But it is also the absolute truth. Every fiber of your being is completely denied when you’re a child dealing with an unhealed parent. I used to hold some pretty heavy grudges against…

  • You Weren’t Just Sensitive

    I’ve been watching this video and it is blowing my mind away. I’ve been watching these series for about a week or so now, and none of them have sounded more accurate. The wound is so real. Yet you have to pretend that it never existed. You grow up with these roles you and your…

  • Love is More Than

    Like I said in a previous post, God wants us to do everything out of love. The more turbulent my life has been the more I have still been holding on to the greatest commandment God has given us. I don’t hold grudges. Not for very long. It may take me a long time to…

  • People Like Me Right Away, Until my Mouth Opens Anyway

    Yes. I’ve been talking on this topic a lot. Either I’m still traumatized from when I was on meth, or these people are actually wishing me ill, all together. Because I believe in that stuff. I never used to. Until that two (2) year binge on meth. Now, everything and everybody is a constant reminder…

  • Do Everything in Love

    This sounds like a simple verse, but the truth of it is, it’s hard to remember when you’re in amongst the waves, being tossed and thrown among the tide. Do everything in love. That’s a pretty important piece to remember. I’ve been feeling an awful lot of rejection lately. But it’s not so bad that…

  • Close Those Doors Jesus

    I’ve been finding myself doing the oddest things lately. Actually, this past week. I just have not been myself. Well, what I should say is I’ve been praying…. A lot. I’ve got so much going on in my life right now that I’m actually petrified. And I know it has to do with me being…

  • Trust in God

    I like to believe in this. If you just trust God everything you need and desire will be given to you. Only if you take delight in the Lord. You can’t try doing things on your own. You will always fail. But if you have God on your side you can move mountains with just…

  • Is This Love?

    Is this love that I’m feeling? I truly don’t know how it feels to love anybody but my immediate family. So, to say I think I’m in love is a crazy statement. This person has been in front of my face the whole time and I never took notice before. We’ve spent some time together…

  • It’s Time

    I have got so many changes going on right now and I’m wondering, “Why? Why do we have to change everything all at one time?” I’m switching clients at work. I’m moving into my own place. And I’ve lost all of my friends…. Well, not all of them. Only the sensitive ones I guess. But…

  • People Aren’t People Anymore

    I get myself into some terrible messes quite often. I’m not sure how I do it. I’m not sure why I attract the people I do, male or female. I try to just be myself. Regardless of the anxiety. But then, somebody wants to be my friend, until my mouth makes a mess. I don’t…

  • Whose Opinion is Really Right?

    Do you ever talk with people and find out their values or morals really aren’t the same as yours? How do you handle that? I’ll be honest, I struggle with this myself. I want to please everybody, but I want to be honest at the same time. And sometimes that just does not work. It’s…

  • God is Always Telling Me I Have Something to Learn

    I know I’m letting the cat out of the bag, but this is my next tattoo. I’ve already got part of it. I just need the person to put it together. I had an appointment today for it. I won’t say where. It’s the same place I usually go. But something didn’t seem right today.…

  • I’m Learning I’ve still got a lot to learn

    It’s 6am, I’ve been awake since 5am. My mind is constantly rolling over all these decisions I have to make about work and a home. I’ve been offered an apartment. Talk about the wrong timing for that. But I have to move on. Both at home and the job. It’s just scary how it’s all…