Trauma Healing

Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

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  • Charlie Kirk – A man of faith – a Man of Martyrdom

    I don’t watch the news too often anymore, so I don’t really know what’s been happening lately. I had to quit watching, because it was stressing me out. But I went to dinner with a friend this evening and heard the sad news about Charlie Kirk. I about fell over. My daughter mentioned it to…

  • Memories and Trauma

    Yes, the memories are still there. Not just from this recent stint, but going all the way back to childhood. And they’re not necessarily memories stored in the brain, but more so memories stored in the body. The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk, MD is an excellent book on trauma and…

  • On a New Note

    A lot of my posts go into the draft file, because I get too scared to make myself vulnerable. There was a time when I was more forthcoming. But that was when I was on meth and thought people on TV were talking to me. I also thought I was some kind of superstar, about…

  • Morning Meditation

    I love mornings. And I especially love mornings when I can practice my rituals. I find meditation to be the most calming exercise I’ve tried, liked and stuck with. To me, meditation means I’m listening for God’s guidance. I could do this entirely in my bedroom. So my bedroom has become my safety zone. Of…

  • From Scapegoat to Seer

    This is another video I would recommend watching. Like I said, these series are very informative. They really open my eyes. I was the scapegoat in my family while I was growing up. And even now, my mother still despises me for some reason. I’ve often thought that maybe I had another father from the…

  • So the Saying Goes

    I’m not gonna sit here and lie that I am not nervous. Because I am. I don’t know if I’m making the right decisions. Everything is changing all at once. I don’t know what to think of it. Not only that, but I’ve had three (3) job offers now as well. So now I’ve got…

  • New Wake Up Time

    3am has been the magic hour of wake up for me for about a week now. Sometimes I’m able to fall back to sleep rather quickly. Last night, however, or this morning, I don’t think I fell back to sleep until about 4:30am then had to be up at 6:30am to make sure the boys…

  • An Attitude of Gratitude

    I decided to start my morning off with a gratitude list. Because I have a lot to be grateful for. I think my list could go on and on, because today, not only do I feel grateful, but I also feel unconditional love for everybody. Unfortunately, I really suck at sharing warm feelings. That’s probably…

  • Living in a Bully Environment

    There is absolute truth to this. I don’t think there’s much else I can say about it. Other than it’s pretty sad. But it is also the absolute truth. Every fiber of your being is completely denied when you’re a child dealing with an unhealed parent. I used to hold some pretty heavy grudges against…

  • You Weren’t Just Sensitive

    I’ve been watching this video and it is blowing my mind away. I’ve been watching these series for about a week or so now, and none of them have sounded more accurate. The wound is so real. Yet you have to pretend that it never existed. You grow up with these roles you and your…

  • Love is More Than

    Like I said in a previous post, God wants us to do everything out of love. The more turbulent my life has been the more I have still been holding on to the greatest commandment God has given us. I don’t hold grudges. Not for very long. It may take me a long time to…

  • People Like Me Right Away, Until my Mouth Opens Anyway

    Yes. I’ve been talking on this topic a lot. Either I’m still traumatized from when I was on meth, or these people are actually wishing me ill, all together. Because I believe in that stuff. I never used to. Until that two (2) year binge on meth. Now, everything and everybody is a constant reminder…

  • Do Everything in Love

    This sounds like a simple verse, but the truth of it is, it’s hard to remember when you’re in amongst the waves, being tossed and thrown among the tide. Do everything in love. That’s a pretty important piece to remember. I’ve been feeling an awful lot of rejection lately. But it’s not so bad that…

  • Close Those Doors Jesus

    I’ve been finding myself doing the oddest things lately. Actually, this past week. I just have not been myself. Well, what I should say is I’ve been praying…. A lot. I’ve got so much going on in my life right now that I’m actually petrified. And I know it has to do with me being…

  • Trust in God

    I like to believe in this. If you just trust God everything you need and desire will be given to you. Only if you take delight in the Lord. You can’t try doing things on your own. You will always fail. But if you have God on your side you can move mountains with just…