Trauma Healing

Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

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  • Being Fearful

    About thirty (30) minutes ago I was wondering why God was putting me through the things he was, and it all has to be done at the same time. My current job is not working out. I’ve been there four (4) plus years. But in order for me to accel in my job it has…

  • I See You

    I’m getting so used to be alone. I mean, I like being around people, but I have this gift, that everybody despises. I can see right through BS. And people don’t like that. I don’t even like it. That’s why I take my medication. It drowns out the truth. I’ve had a lot of people…

  • New Habits

    I don’t think I will ever understand people. I can’t even understand myself at times. But God is teaching me. I know the difference between empathy and enabling. I also believe what Jesus says in the Bible, that we should show compassion to all people, regardless of what they’re doing. I’ve been taught not to…

  • Life’s Purpose

    I struggle a lot from day to day, wondering what my purpose is and why I’m going through the things I’m going through at the same time. I’ve been offered an apartment. I haven’t been on my own in five (5) years. This is actually a little scary for me, I’ve been protected for so…

  • Attachment Styles

    In my last post I touched on the four (4) attachment styles. Everybody each has their own attachment style, with the healthiest being a secure attachment. People with a secure attachment style generally have healthy, balanced relationships. They know how to get their needs met, or have gotten all their needs met as a growing…

  • You Can’t Heal in Survival Mode

    I wanted to share this video with you because it’s very good to watch in explaining trauma and healing. Healing isn’t always a pretty story. Healing requires a lot of work and courage. I don’t think people really understand the depth of it, and if I hadn’t been forced into my healing journey I probably…

  • It’s True, it’s Not About Me

    When I first got off meth, I used to take everything so personally. When I got away from that man and off the meth, I was “hyper vigilant“, (using the best word). I was paranoid of people. I didn’t know what was real and what was not. I’m trying to tell people here, this is…

  • Name Calling

    I don’t know what got me on this topic, but I’m bringing it up, because hearing name calling is like, the most detestable thing. I can’t stand it. Why do people have to stoop to name calling? Men don’t realize that they have an impact on a woman’s mental health by their name calling. How…

  • Triggers

    I used to be easily triggered by people, but not so much anymore. First of all, I avoid anything or anyone that I feel is going to be a trigger. I know that’s not the best answer to the problem, but it’s the best answer I have right now. I know a time is going…

  • What About Coping Skills

    When I was in the start and the worst of my healing journey I began coping by shuffling tarot cards and reading tarot cards twenty-four (24) hours a day, seven (7) days a week. I didn’t know what else to do. Back then I was in a drug induced psychosis. I thought tarot readers on…

  • Talk Therapy

    It’s hard for me, when I see an easier way and I try to approach it to them, but they get angry that I’m showing them an easier way. I am nowhere near healed from my trauma. I am fifty-five (55) years old and I just started on my journey…… I would say, ….when I…

  • Healing Isn’t Always Pretty

    I’ve spent an enormous amount of time being angry at my perpetrator(s). The most recent one for sure. I’ve been angry, hoping God will reach him and teach him. And just when I feel like I’ve finally got my “vengeance”, he gets off with a slap on the wrist. What’s a person to feel about…

  • Finding a therapist

    When I say, “Not every therapist is a good therapist”, I don’t mean there are bad therapist’s out there. I just mean not every one works for everyone. You need to be choosy. Find out what their specialties are. Read reviews. Give them at least four (4) sessions before determining if they are a fit…

  • The Black Sheep

    True statement. I am so used to being blamed for everything. I believe they call that the “Black Sheep” of the family. And it’s true, I was definitely the black sheep. The one that would not conform to the family dysfunction. The one who had the biggest mouth. The one who told anybody that would…

  • Don’t Take Things so personally

    There is absolute truth to this statement. I used to be overly sensitive to words and actions, but since I realized I needed to heal, and what I was experiencing from other people were actually triggers to my trauma, I began to change my reactions to their behavior. I used to feel like people were…