Trauma Healing

Personal Experience Healing from Trauma

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Healing from trauma is a lifetime of work and dedication. Hi, my name is Cindy. I have started this blog to be more like a diary. I share my thoughts and experiences and joys so that I may touch just one heart out there. I won’t claim to know it all, as I am not a doctor. But what this is will be my own experience of trauma and recovery. And maybe a friend whom can share their wisdom as well. We are all walking this same journey in life. But all of our paths are different. I believe in oneness. I believe we are connected. Trauma doesn’t have to be huge to be trauma. Just being born can be a traumatic experience. Let’s talk about this and see where it goes.

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  • Is This Love?

    Is this love that I’m feeling? I truly don’t know how it feels to love anybody but my immediate family. So, to say I think I’m in love is a crazy statement. This person has been in front of my face the whole time and I never took notice before. We’ve spent some time together…

  • It’s Time

    I have got so many changes going on right now and I’m wondering, “Why? Why do we have to change everything all at one time?” I’m switching clients at work. I’m moving into my own place. And I’ve lost all of my friends…. Well, not all of them. Only the sensitive ones I guess. But…

  • People Aren’t People Anymore

    I get myself into some terrible messes quite often. I’m not sure how I do it. I’m not sure why I attract the people I do, male or female. I try to just be myself. Regardless of the anxiety. But then, somebody wants to be my friend, until my mouth makes a mess. I don’t…

  • Whose Opinion is Really Right?

    Do you ever talk with people and find out their values or morals really aren’t the same as yours? How do you handle that? I’ll be honest, I struggle with this myself. I want to please everybody, but I want to be honest at the same time. And sometimes that just does not work. It’s…

  • God is Always Telling Me I Have Something to Learn

    I know I’m letting the cat out of the bag, but this is my next tattoo. I’ve already got part of it. I just need the person to put it together. I had an appointment today for it. I won’t say where. It’s the same place I usually go. But something didn’t seem right today.…

  • I’m Learning I’ve still got a lot to learn

    It’s 6am, I’ve been awake since 5am. My mind is constantly rolling over all these decisions I have to make about work and a home. I’ve been offered an apartment. Talk about the wrong timing for that. But I have to move on. Both at home and the job. It’s just scary how it’s all…

  • Being Fearful

    About thirty (30) minutes ago I was wondering why God was putting me through the things he was, and it all has to be done at the same time. My current job is not working out. I’ve been there four (4) plus years. But in order for me to accel in my job it has…

  • I See You

    I’m getting so used to be alone. I mean, I like being around people, but I have this gift, that everybody despises. I can see right through BS. And people don’t like that. I don’t even like it. That’s why I take my medication. It drowns out the truth. I’ve had a lot of people…

  • New Habits

    I don’t think I will ever understand people. I can’t even understand myself at times. But God is teaching me. I know the difference between empathy and enabling. I also believe what Jesus says in the Bible, that we should show compassion to all people, regardless of what they’re doing. I’ve been taught not to…

  • Life’s Purpose

    I struggle a lot from day to day, wondering what my purpose is and why I’m going through the things I’m going through at the same time. I’ve been offered an apartment. I haven’t been on my own in five (5) years. This is actually a little scary for me, I’ve been protected for so…

  • Attachment Styles

    In my last post I touched on the four (4) attachment styles. Everybody each has their own attachment style, with the healthiest being a secure attachment. People with a secure attachment style generally have healthy, balanced relationships. They know how to get their needs met, or have gotten all their needs met as a growing…

  • You Can’t Heal in Survival Mode

    I wanted to share this video with you because it’s very good to watch in explaining trauma and healing. Healing isn’t always a pretty story. Healing requires a lot of work and courage. I don’t think people really understand the depth of it, and if I hadn’t been forced into my healing journey I probably…

  • It’s True, it’s Not About Me

    When I first got off meth, I used to take everything so personally. When I got away from that man and off the meth, I was “hyper vigilant“, (using the best word). I was paranoid of people. I didn’t know what was real and what was not. I’m trying to tell people here, this is…

  • Name Calling

    I don’t know what got me on this topic, but I’m bringing it up, because hearing name calling is like, the most detestable thing. I can’t stand it. Why do people have to stoop to name calling? Men don’t realize that they have an impact on a woman’s mental health by their name calling. How…

  • Triggers

    I used to be easily triggered by people, but not so much anymore. First of all, I avoid anything or anyone that I feel is going to be a trigger. I know that’s not the best answer to the problem, but it’s the best answer I have right now. I know a time is going…